Theres a kiwi lodged in my throat
It's whole and uncut but taste is everywhere
Prickling my tonsils and scratching
Focus on fruit and journeys make themselves
As last inside the safety of the elevator
Dimensions grow and morph in my ride
Awkward silence
I'm overwhelmed by the waves
Floating in the violent waters
Crashes on my head and drowning
I accept my fate and sink down deep
The water spirit greets me unconsciously
"Do not fear, balance will come."
My mouth is nonexistent and my voice unheard.
"Your in the dream world my child"
"I am here to guide your soul"
She is the most beautifully fluid being
Rich blue with flowing hair, misted eyes
I awake on a beach, soaked
Trees to my left and a rock outcrop ahead
Seeing my goal at the rocks I get up and head over
Momentarily I snap back and sit
Reality becomes data, numerical and disintegrating
Plotting themselves, graph forms and rotates
Peaks form vesicles and are emitted as energy
Transformed through a converter to motion
Motion uncaptured because I'm past it
Incompatible with energy converted
My new connexion to that of a fourth
Redirected to my soul animal, crab
Four spirit joints, intakes of energy
I see the moon outside and it takes me
I'm back on the beach with her
Laying on the rocks and relaxing
Grip her arm and I start my journey
Injecting my soul into her for exploration
My will straps her down and questions
Interrogating her soul inside her own mind
Shes on a table incapacitated
I strip her mind and dislike what I see
Retreat back to my mind, allowing hers to follow
I am stronger than her and control the penetration
Finishing my experiment, we awake as cookie cuttered
We're on the beach again, safe
The sand gives way to a Wisconsin prairie
This is where I can see her aura
A light purple with pink circles
These circles erupt with white disease
Trying to ease my being
She grips me in a mothering way
I'm taken back to good days
And I feel cared for.
I know its a falsehood though
Monday, February 21, 2011
Marq2.15
I am suddenly perched upon a glacier
Bitter wind blowing, I feel the earth rotating
From this view I can be more insightful
Swap back to the car
The girl next to me
She is a monstrous witch
With gorilla hands and wispy aura
I can see her personality
Can feel it's no fit for me
Next thing I know, I'm in a video game
Driving around a virtual world
We park and naturally look up
Searching for the moon in the night
It's a guide for the soul
A boost of confidence for the nightly soul
Not finding it I subject myself
The reality turns to origami on me
I dodge the paper cuts with ease
Over a thousand miles
Sustaining mere scratches
The absence of the moon noticed
Allows me to be more cynical
To make the choices I must to survive
I have a connexion to the moon
One that is sacred and immortal
The guiding spirit of the night
She is fluid and up for interpretation
My love for her is personal
Like another parent that has phases
Drifting in and out
Teasing me to become self sufficient
Spirit help me to live in the right
To think as you would and love
I am the shaman of the moon
I do her bidding like a puppet
Bitter wind blowing, I feel the earth rotating
From this view I can be more insightful
Swap back to the car
The girl next to me
She is a monstrous witch
With gorilla hands and wispy aura
I can see her personality
Can feel it's no fit for me
Next thing I know, I'm in a video game
Driving around a virtual world
We park and naturally look up
Searching for the moon in the night
It's a guide for the soul
A boost of confidence for the nightly soul
Not finding it I subject myself
The reality turns to origami on me
I dodge the paper cuts with ease
Over a thousand miles
Sustaining mere scratches
The absence of the moon noticed
Allows me to be more cynical
To make the choices I must to survive
I have a connexion to the moon
One that is sacred and immortal
The guiding spirit of the night
She is fluid and up for interpretation
My love for her is personal
Like another parent that has phases
Drifting in and out
Teasing me to become self sufficient
Spirit help me to live in the right
To think as you would and love
I am the shaman of the moon
I do her bidding like a puppet
Marq2.14
It's like wearing inline skates on a roller coaster beam
Loosing balance all the same
Then I take a trip to the moon
Strolling around, dodging the craters
Light and agile I seem to float
Then I'm called by my governing body
To return to my center without abrasion
Focused I enter my temporary home
Elemental earth overcomes me
I am a strong oak tree, animated
I feel the breeze through my leaves
Soft and elegant the wind touches me
This feeling transitions into realization
The moon as earth and sun as fire
Circles of a yin yang
Moon with water and sun with air
My natural tenancy to the Earth and Water
Moon calms me, gives me security
Allows a new type of sense internally
Sense of auras that I have tasted before
Never as definite but insightful
The complexity of those around me
Manifests itself as radiant colors and lines
Loosing balance all the same
Then I take a trip to the moon
Strolling around, dodging the craters
Light and agile I seem to float
Then I'm called by my governing body
To return to my center without abrasion
Focused I enter my temporary home
Elemental earth overcomes me
I am a strong oak tree, animated
I feel the breeze through my leaves
Soft and elegant the wind touches me
This feeling transitions into realization
The moon as earth and sun as fire
Circles of a yin yang
Moon with water and sun with air
My natural tenancy to the Earth and Water
Moon calms me, gives me security
Allows a new type of sense internally
Sense of auras that I have tasted before
Never as definite but insightful
The complexity of those around me
Manifests itself as radiant colors and lines
Marq2.13
Sunk deep inside I hide feelings of fear
That I am not enough.
Banished to be alone all of my dayz
Down the vortex, swirling
I become fluid and loose
Twisted and contorted
Until I smash into the depth
Surrounded in darkness, but aware of where i've been
A puddle on the ground
Life breathes into me
Tapping to a new rhythm
My animal form takes a crab
Mathematical in nature, but lacking
Morph me into an octopus
Its more malleable this way
My form makes a basin
From which feet arise
Out of the water her form emerges
Stuck at the end
Meditation to release
Glowing bright in focus
Once complete we dance naked
A romantic embrace
That I am not enough.
Banished to be alone all of my dayz
Down the vortex, swirling
I become fluid and loose
Twisted and contorted
Until I smash into the depth
Surrounded in darkness, but aware of where i've been
A puddle on the ground
Life breathes into me
Tapping to a new rhythm
My animal form takes a crab
Mathematical in nature, but lacking
Morph me into an octopus
Its more malleable this way
My form makes a basin
From which feet arise
Out of the water her form emerges
Stuck at the end
Meditation to release
Glowing bright in focus
Once complete we dance naked
A romantic embrace
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Marq2.12
Day by day, stone faced he moves
Drifting with the wobble bass
Starring into the eyes of classic passerby's
He peers through to the soul
Cold eyes that pierce all who resist
The abstract strategy of the mind
To lock in, face to face with another
The stronger of the two will not turn
Approached in a different mood
A smile that you hope to find
Internal defragmentations unwind
Denatured by the rapid pace
Rhythmic steps ripening my dreams
And cause my mental to stumble
The humble contact of optical association
Magical moments of soul perception
To random strangers, seems unnerving
But depth to be reached, deserving.
Drifting with the wobble bass
Starring into the eyes of classic passerby's
He peers through to the soul
Cold eyes that pierce all who resist
The abstract strategy of the mind
To lock in, face to face with another
The stronger of the two will not turn
Approached in a different mood
A smile that you hope to find
Internal defragmentations unwind
Denatured by the rapid pace
Rhythmic steps ripening my dreams
And cause my mental to stumble
The humble contact of optical association
Magical moments of soul perception
To random strangers, seems unnerving
But depth to be reached, deserving.
The Stepping
Walking in a blizzard
The cold wind kissing my face
Light flakes land on me sappingly
Each step feels like I've been here before
Dragging my feet i move
Stepping in the past steps
Strides too short
Thoughts too simple
The oldest steps even move backwards
In thought, I drift alone, not cold
The cold helps me feel alive
Helps me think
The dwellings on events past
They are the same as my steps
In the right direction, more complete, deeper.
This weight being lifted
A depth of years endured
I no longer am restrained by these chains
Nor forced to breathe this water
Now I am in control
After lifting my life long battle
The cold wind kissing my face
Light flakes land on me sappingly
Each step feels like I've been here before
Dragging my feet i move
Stepping in the past steps
Strides too short
Thoughts too simple
The oldest steps even move backwards
In thought, I drift alone, not cold
The cold helps me feel alive
Helps me think
The dwellings on events past
They are the same as my steps
In the right direction, more complete, deeper.
This weight being lifted
A depth of years endured
I no longer am restrained by these chains
Nor forced to breathe this water
Now I am in control
After lifting my life long battle
Marq2.9
I feel betrayed having given all.
You let me fall in love knowing you didn't feel the same.
Your idea of sacrifice is STILL selfish.
I feel used by you.
I still love you after all this time and all i want is to feel nothing for you.
You tired not to hurt me, but you've hurt me the worst anyone ever has.
Every time i see your picture or name i immediately feel upset.
You left me broken and alone knowingly.
You never made me feel loved.
I'm tired of thinking about you.
You let me fall in love knowing you didn't feel the same.
Your idea of sacrifice is STILL selfish.
I feel used by you.
I still love you after all this time and all i want is to feel nothing for you.
You tired not to hurt me, but you've hurt me the worst anyone ever has.
Every time i see your picture or name i immediately feel upset.
You left me broken and alone knowingly.
You never made me feel loved.
I'm tired of thinking about you.
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