These last few months have been quite rough comparatively to the past few years. I have been dealing with the fact that I find many of the institutions within the healthcare system to be morally impaired to put it nicely. This realization has put stress on my educational pursuits because I am currently studying to be a Clinical Laboratory Scientist, but I am double majoring with Philosophy which allows me to still graduate with a degree if I choose to drop the health professional pursuit. Another factor that has been pushing me to drop the CLS degree is that I am feeling like I am putting in so much effort and working very hard to do well, but consistently scoring in the bottom bracket of my class. I am feeling the stress of trying repeatedly but failing to score in the percentile that I would feel comfortable with.
I am so grateful for the support that Fione is showing me these months. She has been a huge part of the reason why I have survived as long as I have through this stressful time. Fione is the kind of girl who will bend over backwards for me, pushing herself incredibly hard simply to give me a small comfort, and after she has done all she can think of she goes on to ask me if I need anything else. She is the kindest woman that I have had the pleasure to meet in my life, second only to my own mother who is a saint. Fione has had such a tremendous impact on my life in the short time I have known her, truly showing me what it is to love another person mind, body, and soul. I even tell her that she is too good for me, but I know that I can be the man she needs me to be. It will be hard for me to face the demons of my past but she will be there with me every step of the way with her endless compassion. She has shown me a kind of love that I have never experienced and a kind that I don't think I could ever find again if I tried. So to you Fione, lover, best friend, and grounder of my thoughts, I love you.
